Oh brother!

Since she’s been in a relationship for quite some time now, she doesn’t know how to react to guys who show they care. All she wants now is a platonic relationship with every new guy she meets. Even if a guy shows something different on how he treats her, she would not entertain it and she’ll block the thought of it consciously or unconsciously and acts around the guy as if nothing’s unusual. She does want male friends, she has lots of them from highschool. The problem is, people always give malice when a guy is close to her. It’s as if every guy who’s seen next to her has intentions of that kind. Poor lady, she can’t enjoy fully the friendships offered to her by the opposite sex while all she wants is the comfort coming from a guy who listens and is not asking anything in return, just like an older brother.

Queen of her own world

You are not pretty like us! That’s what she said. People can’t believe how conceited she is. She talks and acts like she’s always right. I don’t know why she even describe herself as religious. Oh well, being religious doesn’t mean you always abide by His rules. She indeed love herself but not her neighbors. She feels superior to almost everyone she knows. I really can’t believe her. I know there are conceited people, it’s just now that I personally know one and if this has a stage, you bet she’s already in the last one. Yes, she’s that worse. She kept on talking about something that is obviously used as to defend her principles (ahem! crooked one). You’d just feel that everything she says intends to insult someone or make them feel bad. Needless to say, people who care feel bad for her. We can just hope. Who knows, maybe someday she’ll learn what’s truly right for everyone and be selfless. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

Idealist indeed.

She is in a relationship for more than three years now. The thought that haunts her every now and then. A feeling of wanting to settle down, having her own family – baby, dream house, dream job. She has a long list of what she wants in life. While praying at night, she often tells Him that she’ll accomplish those one by one. However, at times she can’t help but ask if she’ll be given the chance, if there’s enough time and if she’ll make everyone who’s part of her life happy. Idealist indeed. No one could and would ever know the real her. She is a special girl who’s besieged by many people and instances. An inspiration to me and I hope to others too. She lived a life that is full of smiles and tears. I wonder if she knows she’s special. I wonder if she does love her life. I wonder if she knows people are grateful of her. I wonder if she is fulfilling her dream. I’m just wondering like one who has been.

Another drama

To be totally honest, I was expecting for another drama to come. I am so lucky to be in a different shift. It’s more peaceful and it feels good to just a have a long time friend to talk to. Last night was so embarrassing. They are like pre-schoolers fighting over a friend. I don’t want to go into details this time. They are old enough to handle the situation. (That I’m not sure of)

Super Duper

Puh-lease enough of the drama! It’s just really weird, I’ve been wanting to get out of the company of people who are so negative in everything since high school. And now what? I am already working and unlucky me, some of my new found friends aren’t really optimistic. Here’s the story:

We are planning to join the team’s outing (company) so that we can have time to bond w/o bothering to think when and where since it’s all planned-out. We are five in our so-called group. Everything’s in its perfect place until two of us, me and a long-time friend, asked one of our senior officemates if they’re joining the outing. From there, you-know-who kept on asking us especially me if we’re really interested to join them or not which is not surprising because we’re the first ones to ask. The problem is, they think you-know-who likes me and that he just wants my friends to come to make sure I’m going. So, they feel un-invited. But who cares? We’re all part of the team and since when did he matter? To make it worst, they kind-of let out what they really feel. One thinks she’s so out of place in our group and the other is scared to lose us to other officemates as her friend. I know, so childish and selfish, right? I thought we’re all professionals here. Tell me, am I still in school? J, you know we never made you feel out of place, it is you who kept on isolating yourself because you text and talk to your boyfriend non-stop. M, I can’t believe you’re the oldest among us. How can you think like that?

Anyways, the latest? M texted to tell me they now want to join us. After all the drama, yes… Bonding time.

Spotted

This is a late post.

Spotted. Danielle having a date with who? I can’t believe what I saw. Why is she not home taking care of her baby, my god-son? And why the hell did she share the details with me? This guy is asking for a one night stand. She told me that they have a bet. Who cares about the bet? Someone is waiting for her to come home. I can’t understand her, maybe she’s drunk. But she always played it safe. What is she getting in to? Sometimes, I just can’t understand her.

Update the outdated

I have no idea what to write. I just want to keep myself busy because if not, I might doze off to sleep. I am glad that payday is near even if I know that the money will just slid through my hand. I already got a list of things I “have” to buy. Fine. Maybe “want” is more appropriate. Just thinking about it really makes me so excited. Hmm… What else? My officemates and I also have plans to go out. We’ll probably have some booze and sing our hearts out. ‘Til then, I will keep you guys posted. Yah right, as if someone’s reading my blog. But I like to keep it this way. I am safe from I-know-who. lol. You’re so funny, I can only imagine your face when you learned that you’re so busted. Grow up dear! Don’t you think it’s too late for you to be acting like that? Until when do you plan on comparing yourself to me? Whatever. I shouldn’t have talked about you here. You might think you’re so important. Oh no no no no, of course you already think you’re important. You always did. What a conceited person. We would never totally understand each other. By the way, you must see me when I already have my new clothes on then you might want to update your closet. Hihi…

Insecurities flaring up

I can’t understand why some people are so nosy. Why don’t they just mind their own business. This girl has been bugging me since I created my previous blog which simply contains stuff I want to talk about and experiences I want to share. Though she is older than me, I just can’t call her a lady. I hope one day she’ll grow up and realize that sometimes, the best thing to show you care is just let people be. She thinks that its her business to make everyone in the family feel good about each other. Like duh, we’re both not even part of the family. We’re just the girlfriends remember? Why will you get affected if the family doesn’t like me because I often kept quiet during dinners and some occasions? Don’t use them. Whatever it is they have against me, it’s their prerogative not yours. What I’m trying to say here is, if you don’t like me that is because you don’t like me. That simple. I don’t know what your reasons are to hate me but I believe I didn’t do anything to anyone most especially to you to make you feel that way. I’m not even conceited like you to believe what others say which is you’re probably just insecure of me. We’re totally different and you know that. So stop talking about me wanting to be like you. With that attitude, no one would ever want to be like you. You’re not even pretty. Duh!

Dream of a dreamer

I had a dream last night and it totally freaked the hell out of me. Men in my life from the past, present, and I hope not in the future were all present in my adventurous and bothering dream. This is the effect of watching a DVD right before you sleep.

 

Some says dreams are generated by your unconscious desires in life. Some says these are the complete opposite of what’s gonna happen. If that’s the case, does that mean things I’m unconsciously passionate about will never transpire in real life?! Poor me. I mean us.

 

Back to my dream. It was about me being chased by some high officials for having a darn good diary that kept dirty secrets of well… important people. There, I just watched Bank Job. Anyways, just like most of my dreams, this one’s so confusing. My man from the past, oh well not mine actually, just popped into my dream from nowhere. As in no connection whatsoever at all. While this guy which I’m hoping will not be part of my future just had a one-night stand with… who else… ME! To make it even worst, my guy, as in my current boyfriend and his family were all standing outside the room where I quickly fixed myself after the shagging that just happened. Eeww… I won’t make this post any longer, it won’t do anyone good.

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